Safe Return..Kinda :Gabe:

[James Dillion Halsey]

James wanted to fight, seriously, he did. He wanted to pushed his boyfriend away, but at this point, he was just grateful that Gabe was helping him at all. But as soon as he stood up, the pain in his head increased greatly along with random black spots that covered his vision. He just whimpered instead of fighting. "Okay, Gabe, just..no st mungo's, just take me upstairs...uhm please?" James didn't want to go to the hospital at all, he didn't want to deal with the questions people were going to ask, especially when they were trying adopt a little her. James's trip to the hospital after a fight was not going to look good.

Gripping Gabe's hand to steady the rushing pain, he was just grateful that the black spots from his site were clearing. "Thanks...oh knight and shinning armor." James didn't want to say it, but he did like that even though the older male was upset with him, that he still came for him. And that he was still calling him his boyfriend even though Gabe's views on what he was doing weren't good. "No hospital...please?"

[Gabriel Roman Sykse]

Gabe looked at James. "Shut up, you're going to St. Mungos whether you like it or not. If you're dumb ass didn't go storming out to cry like a baby, you wouldn't be in this position. And if you have a concussion then I would like to make sure you don't go to sleep and end up in a coma." He shot James a glare. "And don't argue with me over this." Yeah, he was feeling a bit sour about this. He was stuck coming to the rescue when he was supposed to be thinking things over. James claimed he could take care of himself, but the guy was about as useless as a newborn child without his wand. Running a hand through his hair, Gabe looked to James. "I'm still not happy with you, just so you know. In fact, I'm pissed, but I'll spare you some grief since you're hurt." Didn't change the fact that he would sleep in the guest room tonight either.

[James Dillion Halsey]

James pushed his boyfriend away, "Then go back to wherever the fuck." He didn't yell, he didn't even look at Gabe when he was talking, he just moved his head to the metal railing. "Your an asshole. Just go the fuck away. I don't want your help." The grateful part of him for having Gabe right now, was short lived, he should not be doing this right now. He wasn't going to St. Mungo's, if he went there, and the adoption agency found out he was in a fight serious enough that got himself sent to the hospital, they were not going to let them adopt. Did Gabe not understand that?! James wanted that little girl more than anything, he wasn't going.

"Don't spare me anything, just get away from me." James ignored the headache and the dizziness as he moved himself up the stairs, he wasn't going to the damn hospital. He wasn't going to explain himself. He was going to go to bed, and pretend today was already over with. "Go be pissed somewhere else." He wanted to be alone, he wanted space without going to pub, some asshole had to come and bother him, and that was his fault? James wasn't bothering anyone sitting down here, so why did the guy have to ever start anything.

"I damn well can take of myself, but fighting is a big no-no with agencies." James was more than able to fight, he knew that and it pissed him the hell off that Gabe doubted him this much. His head was throbbing, and by the time he reached the top of the stairs, he had to close his eyes for a second to relieve the pain a little.

[Gabriel Roman Sykse]

So this is what it had come down to. James wanted to be online. He wanted to go sulk because Gabe had all rights to be pissed off. He almost punched the wall just thinking about it. "I'm an asshole, but I came out here and saved your ass when I could have just left you to get your scrawny ass kicked? Yeah, I'm a real ass. I wonder what makes me normal," he spat. Gabe generally didn't get angry, most times he just shrugged it off and let James have his way, but this was too much. His boyfriend was out there killing people, muggles who couldn't defend themselves. He had supported James from day one, but this was pushing it.

"Fine, act like  a brat. See if I care. Maybe you'll wake up after three years and realize how stupid you are. How fucked up in the head you are. Those people did you wrong, I get it, but two wrongs don't make a right. You're worried about the agencies hassling you over a fight, don't make me laugh. That's the least of your worries. Let them find out you just slaughtered a bunch of muggles. They dig for that sort of stuff, James. Hell, that little girl could be muggleborn!" Gabe shook his head. "But that really doesn't matter, now does it."

Gabe waved his hand dismissively. "It's always about you James, it's always about you. How about you think about the people around you and those people's future. How about you think about your own future. If you're going to live this double life of yours, I'm starting to think you can leave me out of it. I'm tired of dealing with the mess." He turned away and cleared the rest of the stairs. Who needed James anyway?

[James Dillion Halsey]

Why in the hell would Gabe say that shit out loud? Outside of the apartment, anyone could hear him, he turned and glared at Gabe, but it was short lived when Gabe threatened to actually leave him. He just starred for a second, he knew really it would have come to this, but it was something he just wanted to keep postponing. James just moved to the apartment opening the door, leaving it open for Gabe to follow if he wanted to, but he didn't want to have this conversation out in the hallway.

"Okay. If she was muggleborn, she won't be raised by muggles." He said simply answering the question he was sure Gabe didn't even want an answer to. Sitting down on the couch, he put his head back against he back of the couch, trying to relieve the pain in his head without a hospital. "It's always about me, yeah...Gabe, I can't just quit. I literally, can't. It's not a choice anymore." He didn't want Gabe to walk out, but he had the mark, if he quit all this, he'd have to deal with the callings of the mark, the burning when Donovan wanted his meetings or missions, after James missed out on enough of them, he'd be looked for. Burke already knew where he lived.

Watching Gabe actually start walking away, he stood up way too fast too stop him, the pain rushed back to his eyes, causing him to loose his sight for a moment, but James grabbed the doorway to stop himself from falling. "I'll stop.." They'd need to move, he'd have to figure something out, but he couldn't loose Gabe. Hunter was going to hate him. "No more missions, no more any of this.." James said defeated. "Just one life, just me and you okay?" There was goodbye to the bar, there was goodbye to the plans him and Dylan made about the Alley, but he couldn't loose Gabe.

[Gabriel Roman Sykse]

Gabe tried not to tune James out as he went on his little whiny rant, but walking out seemed to get a decent result. He glanced at James over his shoulder, his brown eyes narrowed. "No you won't. You can say you'll stop, but I know you James. You'll bitch and complain and cry until I give in and when you get your way, you'll be back at it. There isn't just one life anymore James. There will never be just one life. It'll always be me, you, and them!" He shook his head. "Do as you want, I don't care anymore." The words came out as if he had no problem saying it. "James, before me you had them. After me, you still have them. You can't just up and walk away from Hunter. You can't up and walkaway from them. It's not possible. I don't want you to give up and give in. I just want you to see that this is getting out of hand. I want you to see that sometimes, you have to think about others instead of just yourself."

He sighed and leaned against the steps, looking up at James. "I always support you, because you're mine. You'll always be mine, but you're digging yourself into a hole and I'm not going to be there when it suddenly caves in. " He ran a hand through his hair. "Maybe it's me being selfish. I don't know. I just...yeah, I'm being selfish. I get how much this means to you and all I do is throw it back in your face. Aren't I just a keeper." He turned away and looked out at the darkened road.  I support him because I love him, but how much more can I take before I stop recognizing him? How much longer before I really snap? I want him to be happy, he deserves it, but at what cost to me?

[James Dillion Halsey]

"No, I won't say another word about it. Okay? I..I just won't." James went to convince Gabe, he had no idea what to do now. He'd have to switch jobs for sure, he'd really have to move houses. Adopting was going to be put on hold, he couldn't risk them finding the documents and finding them with the little girl that wanted to adopt. Especially with a kid, James didn't want to risk a little girl's life for this. "It'll just me and you okay? Just..fuck, don't walk away." James moved to his boyfriend, grabbing him by the waist, he didn't want to beg Gabe to stay, but he didn't want him to leave either. He wanted to make Gabe happy, he wanted them to start a family, get married. Have all the works, he didn't know what he was going to do without him.

No, he didn't want to leave Hunter behind. What choice did he have at this point though? Was he going to live his life through the man who took him in or the boyfriend who he wanted to spend his future with? Feeling defeated, James didn't even know what to say now, Gabe didn't want him to be a Death Eater, but he didn't want him to leave it either. "I..I don't know what you want from me Gabe. Just, I don't want to guess. Just tell me okay? Tell me what I have to do to keep you here."

Grabbing Gabe's face, so they were eye to eye, "I don't care. I don't care if you think it's seflish, I think it's protective. We can move, start over. Okay? You can have your band still, I mean, they only know about me. I'll just keep my name off everything that has yours on it, we'll be safe okay?" If Gabe left him, James wasn't even sure what he would do, he'd probably breakdown. Not even Hunter, the person who had been there the most for him, would be able to a broken heart. "Look at me, come on. I love you, you're a keeper to me. I'll walk away okay? I swear it." James would stop by Hunter's, leave him a note, because owling was too dangerous.

[Gabriel Roman Sykse]

Gabe turned and looked at James, his brown eyes unreadable. "What I want doesn't matter," he said quietly. "I'm not going to live a life in fear. It's bad enough you're with a halfblood like me. It's bad enough that my best friend is part of the Ministry. James, we're already living lives of danger, what's the point in putting us in more danger than we already are. What's the point of packing up all we've managed to gain here only to run off into a foreign place where we have little to nothing. I don't want to go into hiding, to question if someone's going to be waiting outside our door with the Killing Curse." He sighed. "Just, don't worry about it."

Gabe smiled. "I'm not going anywhere. I'll always be here. I always have. I'm not going to make you choose between family and me. I'm not that cruel, James. You don't have to do anything to keep me here." He moved past his boyfriend and started up the stairs towards the apartment. "I love you too James, so let's just go upstairs and pretend this conversation never happened." He glanced over his shoulder, brown eyes dark. "We can't change this, so why bother trying? Don't endanger yourself because I get upset with this stuff. This is what you do, and sometimes I guess I just forget."

Honestly he just didn't want to talk anymore. It felt like talking was about as useful as it was running from Death Eater. That and he was tired. He sat on the couch before he laid out on it, his gaze on the floor. Why do I keep getting upset over these things. It was partially my fault for babying him. I just want him to be safe. That's all I've ever wanted and now it's all backfiring on me. He sighed. "Maybe tomorrow will be easier," he mumbled.

[James Dillion Halsey]

Looking around, licking his lips, James moved to the couch after his boyfriend shutting the door behind him. He wished he knew what he was supposed to, opening his mouth a few times with an idea, it made him a little nervous to ask. "I don't know...I, we, I know someone who can make you forget. I don't trust myself enough with advanced magic like that, but I can get Hunter to erase your memory of me being..you know." James looked up at Gabe, really he did want the older man to be happy with him, happy with their life together. He didn't know how Gabe was going to be happy knowing what James was up to, because all it seemed to do was stress him out.

"I can't turn back and undo telling you what I do, but I can make it so you don't have to worry about me." Lifting up Gabe's feet, he sat down on the couch, setting his boyfriend's feet back on his lap. "I don't want you to worry, but I don't want you to leave either." James moved his hands over Gabe's feet, rubbing his hands over his ankles and cafes, it was just touching that was reassuring for James, that Gabe wasn't going to leave and that he was still right here in front of him. James look at his wand on the floor, several feet way, he turned the other way towards his bag. What he needed was inside his bag anyway.

His head was hurting, he wanted to shower and go to bed. Using his feet to pull his bag to him, James refused to get up again. He pulled the envelope back out that he wanted to give Gabe earlier. "These were at one of the places I visited, yes I know your not a supporter of stealing, but at least it wasn't from any of the muggle homes I visited. It was in the pocket of one the guys at the hotel I was staying at. I heard him talking about it, it was the surprise I saw talking about earlier. So..uhm, here." James held out to Gabe to take, leaning his head back on the couch, the throb was still going through his head. He just hoped with some pain potions and sleep, it would heal.

Inside the Envelope

[Gabriel Roman Sykse]

"I don't want to forget, because eventually I'll find out. Then I'll constantly be pissed off that you never told me." He buried his face into the couch. "Just, give me some time James. I just need to cool off is all. I'll be back to normal tomorrow or the day after." He didn't care that his voice was muffled. "You have to understand that he's going to want to know why I want my memory erased, which I don't." He closed his eyes and sighed. He wanted to just go into the room and turn up the amp on his guitar and play until there was no anger left. He wanted the music to wash away all of his pain.

He didn't say anything when James insisted that he could stop Gabe from worrying. Yeah, he'd be able to come home from being hit with the Crucio curse again. He opened his eyes as James handed him the envelope. He opened it and looked at the tickets. Usually he'd be excited, but right now, he wasn't too thrilled. "Thanks." He rolled over and pulled his legs away form James. "Can we just go to sleep or something. I don't feel like talking about this anymore."