Questionable Attraction :Trevor:

[Connor Micheal Collins]

Connor had already looked in the libaray and the common room for Trevor, when he had finally looked out the windows. Going down to the lake, since he had no detentions today and Lucien was busy, he went to go look for Trevor, maybe they could hang out or something. Once he hit the grounds though, he walked quietly behind his friend, putting his hands over Trevor's eyes with his fingers gently. "Guess who. First guesses don't count." Connor said into the boy's ear, with a smile. 

Letting go, he moved to other side of him looking to the lake, he wrinkled his nose. "So I talked to Lucien, he found out about..uhm, yeah. But he says we can be friends." Connor said somewhat quietly, he wanted to talk about it obviously, but he didn't at the same time. It was something he knew he shouldn't have done, but he did do it. He did like Trevor, but Lucien was his boyfriend, he wasn't going to hurt him anymore than what he did already. 

Nodding his head for a second, as if he was thinking, Connor didn't know if he should tell Trevor that more people knew then they suspected or if he should just it go completely. It wouldn't really be fair to Trevor though if he found out that people knew from other people, "Uhm, people know. I don't know if you care or not, but a Slytherin girl brought it up to be the other day." Connor's heart was still his stomach about that girl, he had so badly wanted to hide and still hurt her, so he ran. That was a good day gone bad, fast. 

Trevor Dixon

[Trevor Dixon]

Trevor had decided to spend the afternoon by the lake. In his bag, he had his Charms book and a novel he was reading. That way, he didn't have a bad conscience about not studying, because he COULD take out his Charms book anytime. And he might.
As he was strolling toward the water, someone covered his eyes with a pair of hands, stratling Trevor for a moment. But when he heard Connor's voice, a population of butterflies errupted in his stomach and goosebumps covered his skin. He shivered from pure pleasure.
"Hm, could it be my favourite Ravenclaw seventh year?" he whispered back. Even though he had promised himself to be strictly a friend to Connor, this closeness was making it extremely diffcult.

At the mentioning of Lucien, Trevor felt his butterflies die a very sudden, painful death.
"Oh...I'm glad he's okay with us being friends." he said, hoping he sounded cheerful. He knew that Connor had a boyfriend, and he was going to respect that. He. Was. Going. To. Respect. That. Anyway, Connor only wanted to be his friend, tough as it was.

Trevor shrugged. "Well, really, as long as you didn't get any problems with Lucien because of our kiss, I don't care how many people know. You are a gorgeous man, I'm not ashamed of being attracted to you, and our kiss was great." He smiled at Connor. His friend, he reminded himself.

[Connor Micheal Collins]

Connor blushed, shoving Trevor's shoulder, "Shut up. That's not fair." He said when Trevor told him he was gorgeous, the only thing that threw him off though was the fact that Trevor said 'man' and not boy. Everyone really treated Connor like he was too young or naive to understand anything, even Lucien babied him a little. Connor did like how Lucien treated him, really, it made him feel special, but in a different way. Trevor words, made him feel...proud.

"Lucien said he understands, says I need to hang around other people than just him." Connor told his fellow Ravencalw, sitting down, he didn't really know why it felt uncomfortable to talk about Lucien with Trevor, people were supposed to talk about their boyfriends right? That made sense didn't it? "What were you doing down here anyway? It's not like it's warm anything." He said teasing Trevor with a smile, he laid back on the grass by the lake,

Turning his head to Trevor, Connor really did like how the other boy looked. While their kiss made him feel guilty and he didn't want to hurt Lucien, it did happen. Connor just wasn't sure if he regretted the kiss because of Lucien or if he regretted it for Lucien anymore. This was too confusing, deciding to keep this too himself though, he didn't want to upset Lucien again or loose Trevor as a friend for talking too much about that kind of thing. "I've been wanting to go to Hogsmeade..and I don't wanna go by myself. Uhm..would..wanna come with me?" Connor asked shyly, he didn't want to ask Lucien, the Gryffindor always had something going on on top of being a perfect.

Luicen being a perfect wasn't something he thought about often, but after the deal with Ceres, he began to wonder. Connor wasn't doing anything wrong really, at least he didn't think so, he had seen people kiss their boyfriends or girlfriends in hallways before, he's seen them cuddling in the corridors, but when him and Lucien do it, it was bad. Connor felt like he was just getting Lucien into trouble, seemed like something like that happen nearly every time they hung out. He didn't want that keep happening. "Can I ask you something? I think I'm gonna break up with Lucien...but I don't know."

[Trevor Dixon]

Trevor smiled. "It is totally fair because it's totally true. You are the most gorgeous man I've seen in this castle." There was nothing wrong with thinking your friend was gorgeous and telling him, Trevor tried to convince himself. Girls probably did it all the time.

"Well...yeah. It's nice to have more than one person to hang with and talk to." Trevor agreed. When Connor smiled at him, Trevor just stared at him, awestruck. He loved those eyes, those lips. He wished he could taste them again. He wished Connor hadn't ended the kiss so quickly. He wished he had been a much better kisser than Lucien could ever be, that his kiss had made Connor fall for him. But that was probably too much to be expected of a simple kiss.
He pulled himself out of his doze.
"No, it's not all that warm, but it's too nice to stay inside, I thought. Anyway, I like the lake." He watched Connor as he lay on his back. What was it about this guy that drove Trevor so crazy?

"Going to Hogsmeade sounds like fun. I'd love to come. What have you planned? Does it involve getting a butterbeer in the Three Broomsticks?"

When Connor was silent for a moment, Trevor stretched out beside him. "Sure, you can ask me whatever you want." he said, just as Connor was continuing. Break up with Lucien? Trevor's heartrate sped up at that. Something in his mind told him he was not the right person Connor should talk to about this. Trevor thought it might have been his conscience speaking up. He ignored it.
"Why are you thinking about breaking up with Lucien?" he asked, trying to sound nonchalant.

[Connor Micheal Collins]

Blushing again, Connor turned his head too look away from Trevor, he didn't he'd ever get used to compliments like that. Maybe he should return the favor? "You're..uhm, you..Shut up. Merlin, I'm like all messed up here. You're good looking too." Connor said with a smile, even though his words came out in a pout. Shrugging, Connor went most of his school career without any friends, so he was pretty amazed by the attention he was getting suddenly, and he didn't know really what to do with it. Lucien was his boyfriend, who he was causing issues for all the time, Connor was sure it was only a matter of time before Trevor found that too. Connor was just going to have to wait for that shoe to drop though, he wasn't going to rush it being alone again.

Smiling with a nod, "I didn't really have anything planned, but I did want to go. Spend some of the money I've been making I guess. We can go there, I want to go to Honeyduke's mainly." Connor responded, he looked back at Trevor, feeling a lot more relaxed with him than he had with Lucien since the kiss. But that was Connor's fault. He knew that, it was just, hard. Connor wished he was better so that things could be better. "I'll buy." Connor said, rolling over to his stomach, laying his head on his arm, looking up at Trevor through his eyelashes.

Biting his lip, Connor told him about Ceres. "I feel...bad being around him. Like I'm this bad guy that's going to get him into trouble. He's not doing anything wrong, but because he's doing it with me...It's wrong. I'm..." I'm just not good enough for him. "I'm just not sure we're good together anymore." Connor finished lamely, he looked at Trevor, unsure if he's said too much.

[Trevor Dixon]

"Thank you." Trevor said, smiling at Connor's compliment. "And I didn't mean to mess you up. I just can't help saying it like it is."


Trevor stared at Connor. Was that flirting? It had to be flirting. Connor definitely needed a license for that look, and it was bringing the butterflies in Trevor's stomach back to life with frightening speed.
"Honeyduke's it is, then. But I really want to get that butterbeer with you. I think we'll have enough time to do both."

Trevor sighed. Here was that dilemma again. Trevor felt as if he had two figures sitting on his shoulders, a small angel on the right, a small devil on the left.
'Tell him he's right, that it's the best to break up with Lucien, then make your move.' the devil whispered, rubbing its hands gleefully.
'Trevor, you know that's wrong, you know Connor isn't the problem. So tell him.' the angel said.
'No, his mind is made up, why should you make your own life more complicated? This is your chance to get Connor, go for it!' the devil insisted.
'You know that this isn't true. You wouldn't want a relationship based on a lie.' the angel admonished.
Trevor sighed again.
"Connor, neither you nor Lucien are the problem. You're not doing anything wrong. It just sounds like you've had some issues with pretty intolerant people. I think this Ceres girl sounds like she was pissed already and just vented it on you two. So talk to Lucien about it. I doubt he thinks what you're doing is wrong and I doubt he's blaming you for anything."
After finishing, Trevor wished he hadn't said anything. But he couldn't lie to Connor, he felt way too much for the older boy. If he had blown his chance, then that was tough luck, but he wouldn't lie to a friend to have an advantage.