This Is It... [Pepijn]

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Jason would be lying if he said he wasn't somewhat taken back by Pepijns little outburst of humour. Sitting with his eyebrows up in shock slightly Jason couldn't help but try and fight off the laugh that was arising, managing to hold it back as a chuckle he shook his head in amusement. "Im innocent in that respect," he tried to defend himself, holding one hand up in his defence. "I'm hardly ideal though... like im a bad person at stealing the sheets in bed, i always forget to buy fresh milk and i have a really bad tendency of loosing socks... such deal breaking things, " he teased back giving Pepijn his best puppy eyes, something he'd had Chelsea trying to teach him. "Im rather pitiful really," he shrugged before sticking his tongue out at his date. Jason was aware he was far from perfect but in all honesty he wouldn't be anyone else, just like how he wouldn't want the younger of the two of them to be any different either. "Indeed, otherwise I'd have to convert back to women and thats a scary thought indeed."

As Pep slowly went on to explain how he was somewhat of a virgin towards both sexes Jason couldn't help but melt inside, trust him to fall for the most adorable and innocent man about. "Well its nothing to be ashamed of now is it," he offered gently, resting his head back in place. While Jason loved his daughter like nobody would ever be able to describe part of him couldn't help but wonder if he was given the chance would he redo it all over? In his younger days he had been one of the best bed hoppers around. He'd lost count of how many one night stands he'd had, after all what was the point in counting when you got to such a large amount? 

Looking into the mans eyes, Jason couldn't help but chuckle along with him. "Unfortunately when you're forced to watch princess films for most of the day you do become a bit cheesy. Ask me anything on Sleeping Beauty and i could give you a full analysis, anything on Die Hard and you would have lost me," he softly admitted. Moving back so that they were close by each other, he watched carefully as Pep repeated his words and moved closer towards him as if he was having some internal war in his mind. While Jason knew he had sounded cheesy there were reasons for it, if he questioned everything he did... well, he'd be living a different life now then he was. Biting gently on his bottom lip without noticing, he toyed with the idea of moving that little closer and helping the young man out. Surely that wasn't a crime was it? Choosing to do so, he leant that inch closer so that his lips touched that of the curly black haired man. It was as if sparks passed through his body as they did so, everything was just right. He couldn't put any words to it... it  was just... wow. Pulling back slightly he took a breath to restrain himself from going any further, hoping that he really hadn't gone too far this time. "Pep?" he questioned wanting a response of some form....

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Chuckling as the blonde man tried to defend himself, Pepijn listened to the teasing. “Hmm… I-I guess I’ll have t-to use y-you as m-my b-blanket then.” He teased the man back with a sweet and innocent smile. Heck, he wasn’t even sure what the meaning of tonight was. All that he knew was that he was here now. However he did not know if he actually was going to sleep here. Even if he was going to sleep here, he would probably use the couch or the spare room. Despite not knowing what they were going to do, or if he was going home to his mother or not, he had bought a new set of pyjamas. Usually Pepijn sleeps only with a shirt and his underpants, sometimes even without the shirt. It just seemed more appropriate to wear pyjamas in the house of someone else. “And I g-guess I c-can work on t-the ot-ther things, only n-now I f-find myself guilty of t-them too. It is t-that my mom s-still does most of t-those t-things. M-most of the times I wear t-two different s-socks when I have to do such things of my own. It t-took me half an hour to f-find a matching p-pair but I wanted to d-do a good as p-po-possible, for y-you.” Smirking a little at the adorable puppy eyes of the buffed man, he could not contain his cheeks from blushing. Pinching Jason’s cheek, he gave a very small and light kiss on it afterwards. “Y-yes, you are r-rather pitiful.” He said as he suck his tongue back out. “Y-you are l-like a l-little kid in a-a grown m-man’s b-body. S-simply adorable.”

Jason said that there was nothing to be ashamed of, but Pepijn could not really see that. Always has he seen how easy it was for his best friend David to get girls to bed, just when he tried it, he seemed not to even want it. Maybe his parents did have some influence after all, waiting for the one true one. If it was up to them he would marry a girl and just have sex the wedding night. Still he always had been between his parents traditions and the modern world community. “Uhm.. ah... d-dun-no.. argh. I-I m-mean... J-jase... I’m a-already t-twent-ty... M-most p-peop-ple h-have a-already...” The curly haired man tried to look the other man in the eyes, which was a little hard because he was obviously embarrassed by this. His face was bright red and he was still foolish enough to hope that the other guy would not notice it. Or at least not comment about it.

Snorting a little as Jason told about the princess movies, he just could imagine this guy being forced to watch them with his little girl. “You’d m-make a lovely p-princess, Jase.” He teased the man a little as he stuck his tongue out and poked his bellybutton. “Hm.. I-I really like h-horror movies. W-would you m-mind s-seeing one w-with me somet-times? If y-you are s-scared, you c-can always s-squeeze my h-hand. O-or I could b-bring my P-playstation(1), I just b-bought a-a new g-game: R-resident Evil.” He suggested, looking rather enthusiastic as he talked about the movies and games. Things like that were a lot easier to talk about than all the serious stuff.

As he was still moving closer, still not touching the other man, Pepijn barely noticed that Jason bit his lip. Perhaps his surface was now finally looking calm, because he was very concentrated on his goal. However from the inside he was already freaking out again. Just when he halted and was about to give up, he noticed that the older man’s and his lips were already touching. What, how did that happen? Thoughts were rushing through his head as he felt the lips upon his. They were way softer than he had imagined and it felt really good. It was a feeling he had never felt before, feeling all tingly there was a strange feeling in his belly that would have made him giggle, if he wasn’t too caught up in the moment.
 
Suddenly he felt the other man pulling back. Why was that? Was he doing something wrong? Of course he did, Jason had way more experience with all this, he would have noticed all the small mistakes he had made. Or was it just that he regretted it, that could be it too. Pepijn’s eyes opened again and the big hazel puppy eyes gazed upon the blue ones of the man he could call his beloved. His faced looked like he just got rejected, despite he just didn’t know what he did wrong. Perhaps he really was too foolish to think that everything would just be all right. “J-jase…” He said in return and bit his lip, wanting to look away but his eyes were locked in those of the other man. “D-did..I-I…” Swallowing the rest what was coming, he tried to from the words again. “Ehm.. d-did, I d-do somet-thing w-rong?”

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Jason smiled warmly back at his date at the man began to tease him about reciprocating the same amusingly annoying traits, it was funny how things like that worked out in all. Sometimes though Jason couldn't help but wonder who looked after who in regards as to his own child, it wouldn't have been the first time that she had reminded him to do simple house chores that he often forgot. The little princess was quite the expert now and telling him to buy food when it was needed and doing the washing - something he hated more then the having middle aged single witches about him. "That could be arranged," he laughed briefly in regards as to being used as a blanket. Jason seemed to be a lot larger then Pepijn so there would seem to be plenty of him to go around, not that that would happen for a while though. Somehow Jason couldn't help but feel that it would be a miracle if they slept in the same bed for a little while, not that he'd rush it though. Good things happened to those that waited after all.

As the curly darked haired man stuttered over his words, Jason felt himself internally wanting to pick the poor man up and cuddle him until he was white due to lack of blood flow, he truly was too adorable. Instead Jason gently stroked a hand up and down his back as if it was perfectly normal to do so, he'd began to do so without realising but now took it upon himself to continue doing so. "Pep," he offered gently hoping the man would look him in the eyes and believe him. "It really isn't anything to be ashamed of. I know it sounds odd and i love Chelsea with my heart, but given the choice id go back and wait. Too many people throw away what they have simply to jump on the band wagon rather then wait for the right person to make it special. I actually quite admire you for not having... well ... you know." Jason cringed slightly at his words, he was sounding even more soppy lately compared to usual. What had happened to any manliness that still existed in him? Shaking his head slightly at his thoughts he was glad when Pepijn changed the subject to something he was obviously enthusiastic about. Just seeing the pure excitement on his face was enough to cheer Jason right up again. "Of course," he beamed at the man in his arms, "I would love to watch a movie with you. I'd appreciate it if  you could bring me up to date with whats about that adults watch rather then disney... but i have to ask... what is a playstation?"

As Jason pulled back from there touch he couldn't help but see the look of rejection shoot across Peps face. The pure hurt that seemed to take to the man ripped into Jasons conscience, he'd never meant to hurt him in such a way. As Pepijn spoke, Jason flinched slightly as if every word stabbed into his heart, of course he hadnt done anything wrong. Taking a deep breath to calm his thoughts he slowly reached out and placed one of his palms against the cheek of the man he feared he loved. "No... no... you havent dont anything wrong. I just... dont trust myself at times," he sighed softly, he didnt want to get too carried away and push Pepijn from him... however it seemed that by trying to protect him he had done just that. "I just dont want to get too carried away and forget myself," he added on as a slight whisper, Pepijn was something to protect in his eyes.... even if it meant trying to force himself into something he struggled with...

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Smiling brightly as Jason agreed to watch a movie with him some time. “Yay, t-that makes me h-happy.” He said in a childish way. Pepijn was already looking forward to the one and other movies. “I really like Disney t-too, but I c-can see w-what kind of movies I can f-find. One n-night we w-will have a really s-sp-pooky horror n-night.” He said looking forward to fake being scared so he could cuddle up against the other man. Scary movies didn’t frighten him, in fact they were quite amusing while still a little exiting. However Jason didn’t have to know that he could handle horror movies quite well. When he was asked about the playstation Pep rubbed his chin. Remembering that Jason really was a wizard after all. With him being raised by a muggle mother, he sometimes forgot how unusual these things were. “W-well it is a d-device with you can use to p-play game on the TV. It is q-quite fun to p-play a character and l-lead it’s s-story.” He explained it in an as easy to understand way possible.

Still with his gaze locked in the gorgeous blue eyes of the other man, he waited for an answer. Biting his lips as he wondered why the other man was restraining himself. Pep feared that he may have pushed his luck a little too far. With the wild life that Jason used to live, he thought that the older man should not have this much trouble with it. Or maybe it could be that he rethought this all and didn’t want to do this any more. With his thoughts going crazy he suddenly felt a warm gentle palm on his face. Blinking a little and keeping himself together he listened. As he finally had gotten his answer, he moved his hand to the one that was touching his cheek. With his other hand he leaned on the well build chest of his date.

“Jase, I trust you.” He said without stuttering in which he took his pride. “Ah..I-If you d-don’t want t-this you can j-just say so.” He reassured the other man with a small forced smile. Because he knew that he would not like it if Jason suddenly wanted to stop this all. For that he had grown way too attached. Pep had trouble with opening up to people and talking to them but once he trusted and liked someone, he would never let them go. “It is a p-pity really, I loved t-the touch of your l-lips. Y-Your whole b-being makes me r-relaxed and exited at t-the same t-time.” His voice was soft and he didn’t know if it were appropriate things to say. Never had he been the best in expressing his feelings. Perhaps Jason didn’t notice it but he was way more at ease here than he had ever been. For god’s sake, he even had dare to try to take the lead at some point.

Moving the hand he had rested on the other man’s chest up so it now was laying in Jason’s neck. He thought it was actually kind of sweet that the elder man was worried about getting too carried away. If only he knew a way to bring him more at ease. Deciding to tighten his grip around the hand the was on his cheek, he took it and brought it to his lips. Kissing each finger gently before looking up again to see if this was all right. “Don’t think too much, just do whatever makes you feel good. I don’t want you to be uncomfortable around me.” His voice was surprisingly calm and gentle like he was doing this more often. But in fact this all was still quite new, still with Jason it felt so trusted and right. How could he make it clear to the guy that he wanted this and there was no need to restrain himself? “Jase... I-I want t-to kiss you, p-properly. C-can I?” He finally said with a tomato coloured face that even went all through his neck and ears.

[OOC: sorry had to cut some stuff off or else it would have been too long]